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Mad lib. “A Birthday Walk In the Labyrinth” by KS.  I wrote the clues down as per instructions such as # 1 Number, # 2 Adjective and so on and I didn’t even peek at the story, so I didn’t cheat! Pretty amazing, Mrs. Patterson.

“On the day she turned (??), Manny decided it would be so poised to take a spin in the hot labyrinth.  As soon as the sun roamed and the moon thought, she set out.  In her hands she carried a tree along with 52 windy storms. (Obviously, I am responsible for this weird weather we have had all spring!) Upon rounding the first turn, she felt settled, and she soon noticed a feeling of excitement.  “Wow! I almost worried that!” As she made her way back down the tiny path (This is true in some cases as the forbs grow.) towards the entrance, an eagle swooped down, and landed on her shoulder. “Howdy to you, Friend!” She rang the bell, and decided she felt like going to Best Buy with Rich.  It was a plentiful evening.”

Birthday note from SSR in MD.  “Dear Manny, Got these lovely cards to remind me of much I love hollyhocks and how little the deer in CR and the bunnies in Htown care!  Got them at our very own Prairie Lights-type book store in Shepardstown….the owner was much complimented by my comparison to Prairie Lights. (For those unfamiliar with this reference, PL is a wonderful book store in Iowa City, Iowa, that also cooperates with and assists New Bo Books in Cedar Rapids, IA.)      Perhaps you have been able to sense that after some weeks of Mom challenges, I am finally calmed down and managed (several doctor related visits) with kindness and aplomb.     Thanks so very much for the Reiki – it has soothed my wounded soul….and I am in a fine place on that, as well.       (Explanation of her volunteering with a director of Conococheague Institute who is forward thinking and who like Rich Patterson at Indian Creek Nature Center believes in modest displays.) …that I truly believe was prescient as well as prudent….A new endeavor when I needed one.       Now, about you being a “seeker.” I really think that is your destiny and why you have done so many interesting things and influenced and helped so many different folks find their way to  passion and calm.  But, it’s that calm that you need to me, and being a seeker doesn’t seem to be compatible with your role as a confidante and advisor. I hope you know how I value our friendship.  I guess I wonder if seeking folks can settle – you are more like a butterfly (maybe a honey bee is more your energy, though) going from flower to flower – and it’s all OK and what is supposed to be in this great mystery of life.      So, I wish for you that acceptance can come with your seeking – and I look forward  to hearing of and being a participant in your future adventures because I know you surely have many still to be pursued.  I mean, whoa!  You are the same person who hikes down a path with a llama tippy-toeing over your shoulder as well as an educator unlocking secrets for folks who’ve seen so little academic success – and you love music and plays.  What the heck, no wonder you are my dear friend.      Happy gardens – a gentle rain from (tropical storm) Andrea today.  Happy Mid-summer’s eve in which I plan to read Shakespeare….And Happy Summer!  Our porch wrens are feeding the babies like crazy – a dumb bunny just axed my nicotiana and couldn’t eat it so just left the carcass….But, my grandfather’s butter yellow iris from D’s garden blossomed this year.  I am so happy to see them.  Love, S”

From SO with whom I am “machatainista”:  In response to my query about participating in Labyrinth Facilitator Training with The Reverend Doctor Lauren Artress, the Episcopal priest who brought labyrinths to western consciousness in the later 1990s. SO is trained by Lauren Artress.

“Hi Marion,

I just arrived in YNP on Monday late and getting settled in.  I wouldn’t miss this training if you’re serious about it….  I’m holding your questions from yesterdays email; I want to give it more thought to answer.  I do think that the labyrinth goes hand in hand with your energy work and could be a marvelous match.  One thing I do know, though, is these wonderful skills or tools that we are pursuing aren’t going to make us a lot of money.  I’m just hopeful I can maybe at least pay for a training once a year.  You are in a more populated place than I and which, perhaps, is not as conservative either.  I’m looking at how to use the Internet in various ways but am just beginning to do some research.  I have been holding lots of ideas for a lot of years and now am going to pursue.  However, I told myself I need to move with clear discernment which takes time and not to just say yes immediately to so many things.  I probably have way too many passions for my own good and I need to wade through all of that.  The contemplative piece is foremost in my heart, though, which includes the labyrinth, centering prayer, spiritual direction and Taize.  I will be pursuing these as a package for doing contemplative retreats and workshops but that’s about all I know immediately.  I’m on the look out for where to do them; we could certainly partner again with your energy work and once a year put one on in your area…. I would certainly share there if I have something to offer that your resident labyrinth expert does not already have.  Those are some of my immediate thoughts but I’d sure look hard at going to a training that Lauren puts on in your area….So good to hear from you, Marion, and yes let’s work together some on this if you like.  You have so much to give. “

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How we ended the Grief and Counseling Children and Teens workshop.  Not one of us of the 26 people there, including the facilitator, had a dry eye. From the Book Words Under the Words, by Naomi Shibab.

Kindness
Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.
Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.
Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you every where
like a shadow or a friend.
~ Naomi Shihab Nye ~
(Words From Under the Words: Selected Poems)

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Kylie Helgens column in Saturday’s GZ coupled with the cover article on Yoga made great reading and put into words what I have worked with and believed, well, forever.  Kylie, a certified fitness and wellness trainer asks: “Busy doing what?” Then she examines some premises and makes suggestions on how we can really improve our lives.  *  Am I being intentional?  * What am I doing? *Have I scheduled uninterrupted time today? *What is the one thing I want to accomplish today?  A close examination of those questions can yield good results if we choose to follow the answers we get.  The Yoga article by Alan Bavley, of the Kansas City Star points to improved heart functions by regular yoga practice.  And as heart specialist Dhanunjaya Lakkireddy was quoted, “Yoga is not a solution in itself, but it provides very profound effects….It’s something you can do in your living room for not very much money.”  So, being responsible for 0ur own health?  Such a “radical” idea.

Tied to these concepts – at least in my mind – are two horoscopes:  One Aries “When others succeed, you succeed.  Work together and make magic.  You enter a one-month review period.  Return to basics.  Add humor to reduce stress.” The other Gemini: “You’re hot and only getting hotter; resistance is futile. You’re going to have to accomplish the wonderful things you’ve been wanting, even in the face of cynicism.  Just do it.” Guess that tells me.  And, I think of Sisters Health Club and how they interact with people and each other.  The atmosphere is genuinely warm and friendly and helpful … and hilarious at times!  They welcome input and seek options, appreciating help and client kindnesses.  But, then, they put those same qualities out there, too!  Good going!

Now my mind winds to the blog I posted on July 3, 1012 on the 1080 Labyrinth about weeding the entry way and how relationships sometimes feel like that task.  Now to “All that glitters is not gold.” How easily we gravitate to shiny, new things and adventures.  The extrovert characteristic.  Meanwhile the introvert has some perspectives to lend that just may be helpful.  If we never reflect on where we have been how can we learn from mistakes and successes? And, to be fair, if we are always looking back, we may miss the turn(s) we are supposed to take.

Walking the labyrinth today I both looked down and back and forward and up and saw more than if I had kept my eyes and mind in only one direction.  So, I think I will stop because this is way too heavy.  Maybe I have been eating too many brownies…or not enough!

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1-9-2013  CAVU. Crescent moon.  Cleaning crew in CR doing a good job.  I passed on the word to management but at this date (1-17-13) haven’t heard back.  Sure hope they shared with staff.

Overnight for another: “The healing experience is yours.”  (I asked Ariel ahead.)

Turbulent OJ over the Loess HillsDenver Airport Activities

Wall Concentration keeps passengers engaged between flights.

Entertainment in Denver Airport – sayings along windows. One by Dr. Seuss about the Sneetches.  Hats:  cowboy, crocodile Dundee, cadet, baseball. Dress: Jeans, leggings (remember to cover your “girl parts”) belt buckles.  And here is a picture of large game of Concentration!

Conversation in coffee shop: to do with being in ruts, same o, same o. allow others insight…healers…visionaries.

Glimpse coming into Albuquerque I understood how/why Georgia O’Keeffe painted as she did.  Mild and sunny.

Friendly people.  Car rental gal walked us around the car and gave information.  Christmas decorations still up and people greeted us with “Happy New Year!”  In Iowa we have mostly long put this away by New Year’s Day, so this was refreshing to be greeted with new Year’s wishes.

Road signage somewhat confusing, so getting used to regional variations is important.  Albuquerque people really run red lights but in other parts of the state were more careful. Especially in Indian Reservations.  “Safety Zone” is code talk for the natives own the land and make the rules and enforce the speed limits.  Caveat Emptor!

Playing the flute

A charming totem in the New Life Presbyterian church.

Labyrinths – New Life Presbyterian Church large.  Rocks. Lunations. Labyrs. Center candle and gifts left.  I left a feather.  The labyrinth is used often by evidence of footprints.  Lively feel to it.

St. Chad Episcopal Church – several quail flew.  Paving bricks.  Tucked into a corner overlooking Sandia Mt.             A seven-circuit but with different design. Interesting.

Mt. Sandia Tram. We are here only once so take in the sites..  44 at bottom.  24 at top.  6500 at bottom 10,300 at top.  Both of us felt “tipsy” Snow but the ski run was closed. Coffee and chips/salsa in the High Finance Restaurant.

Workers ride top of tram back down!  Waiter likes working there except for the tram…that is his commute!  Takes about 1.5 hours a day.  Never thought of that.

I had entered wrong phone number for Chocolate Turtle B and B, so we just arrived without notice.  Chris very gracious.  Recommended a restaurant but we decided against a 30+ minute wait.   Bought a few items at Sprouts and ate at the B and B.  name comes from owners were chocolatiers before buying B and B.

Dawn over Sandia Mt.

Such a spectacular welcome to New Mexico!

And Sandia Mt. red also means turtle in native tongue.

1-10-13 Rich and Chris talked rain barrels…watched the sunrise…she and husband from NH also and we talked Pinardville and accents.  Rich re-told how when our friend, Susan Turbyne, was here she wanted to see a real Iowa ‘fahm’. “I’d show you one, but I don’t know what a ‘fahm’ is,”Rich replied dryly.

Looked for one labyrinth at an Episcopal Convent.  Unfriendly feel. Gates.  Camera. No signs. Could not find way in.  Left.

Petroglyphs Nat. Mon. visitor center not anywhere near the petroglyphs so we backtracked to the trail

Quail Petroglyph

Marion Inspects the Quail Petroglyph

head.  Sandy trail follows escarpment. Many petroglyphs in groups along the volcanic rock.  Turtles, quail, mammals, sun symbols, faces.

Found a truck stand selling chiles so I bought four ristras of them to ship back for Dan and Divya, Nancy and Brian, Laurel and Bob and one for us.  Very hot they are!  Keep hands away from eyes.

Lots of time so we took the smaller road through the forest past pueblos. Landforms seemed like: Zion then Spearfish Canyon, then the main road running down the spine of the Black Hills – a tunnel of trees.  Scrub plants to juniper to lodge pole pines to spruce to ponderosa.  Snow on sheltered side and bare dirt on south facing slopes to snow everywhere.

Missed straight away to Los Alamos and turned into the complex.  Had to show our ID. Town is relocated on another mesa.  Down the slope to Santa Fe.

Lunch at Harry’s roadhouse.  Dee Ann met us just at three.

She is a dynamo.  To her home on Bishop’s Lodge Rd.  Where the bishop in Willa Cather’s  novel, Death Comes to the Bishop, was written.

Her home was designed by Glenna Goodacre, noted artist of the Sacajawea coin and with sculptures in DC and Philadelphia.  Four spokes off the hub.  The home is itself a work of art with many artifacts like doors and windows bought in various places and brought in.  Windows, outside doors, views, secluded. And, within the home Dee Ann has many works of art that she has created and collected.

Guest home is also amazing.  Ted Nuttall renting it for now.  Lots of nature items – feathers, shells, books on nature.  Works in progress.

Dinner at Santa Fe.  Very elegant.  Too late in night for me.  Poor sleep.

1-11-2013.  Some stars at 4:30 a.m.  I awoke several times in the night and looked at the stars through the sky lights that dot the roof in the guest home.  Then snow.  Rich left earlier so he could get to Los Alamos in good order.

I figured the routine for the day to include the labyrinths, Dee Ann and the Loretto church where she and Scotty were married, some shops to find the spirit rocks.

A wonderful resource for children and families

“Think like a labyrinth,” Said Dee Ann. It worked!

We met about 9:30 a.m. and managed to find the E.J. Martinez Elementary school.  Nancy Olivares was friendly and directed us to the labyrinth.  “Straight out the door. You can’t miss it.”  Well. We did.  So, Dee Ann said think like a labyrinth and in the corner overlooking the hills but separated from the main playground was the labyrinth. Beautifully sited with a cedar tree blocking the parking lot.  Painted rocks lined the path.  A cold wind and blowing snow truncated our visit, but we enjoyed the walk in and returned the pass to the principal.

Off to the International Folk Art Museum on Museum Hill overlooking the town.  The labyrinth is contained within low walls with gaps just right for running along and leaping from section to section.  That is exactly what two home school boys were doing!  Simply Delightful!

I swept away the light covering of snow to determine the pattern and later Dee Ann mentioned the shape was like the ravens that are

labyrinth

The intricate labyrinth at the Museum of International Folk Art

common in the area. This labyrinth indeed had several ravens that flew over us!  The low wall creates an echo inside the labyrinth, which adds a certain mystery to the place.  But one should not get wrapped up in this too much.  Physics.  Pure physics and that is OK.  Science and spirituality can and should co-exist.  Hit the shop and had coffee and an excellent conversation.  A new director needs something to sink his/her teeth into and that he/she can claim as own.

Downtown we visited the Basilica of St. Francis with the statue of the first indigenous woman beatified by the Roman Catholic Church.  There, tucked into a corner and fittingly so, was a small stone-laid labyrinth.  Dee Ann was amazed because she had never seen it before! Took my picture and waited inside while I walked.  Then, I joined her and was myself amazed by the beauty of the Basilica.  Gothic.  Handsomely crafted stained glass windows that played intriguing patterns on the carpet.  The reredos  behind the altar depicted St. Francis and  many New World scenes.  We could not get into the Loretto Chapel  because it was closed for renovations and inventory. This is the chapel where Scotty and Dee Ann McIntyre were married!  Very cool!

Lunch at one of her favorite places which ended up having some rather loud women dining, too.  But the ambiance and food presentation and taste were wonderful.  We walked the streets a bit and I bought some spirit rocks for people home.  Erica Larson, Julie McPartland, Sarah Stutler, Kelly Souza. WTD.

Back late afternoon.  Cold. Snow blowing. Rich and Dee Ann talked at the house some about nature centers and what he saw on Friday at PEEC.

Late night dining again at a favorite eatery of Dee Ann’s. I think she really misses Scotty and wonder if that is partly why she is always on the move.

1-12-13.  Saturday we packed up. Put all the keys and openers where Dee Ann wanted.  Packed up the chiles that we had bought to send

Classic Southwestern style

View from the guest house

to the kids and give to Laurel.  Then, we headed out to Taos.  Up the High Road and to Sanctuario de Chimayo.  Mary Swander visited here as described in her book The Desert Pilgrim.  The atmosphere was a bit odd.  Combination of spiritual and also commercial (Pizza $2.00) I walked to the small area where the “holy” sand is, let it sift through my fingers and thought of Mary and how she rubbed it into her arms, neck, legs. Rich didn’t like the feel at all.  For me it was OK, but I am less comfortable with the liberal mixing of superstition and religion.  Many icons and the ever present “gory” crucifix which we do not quite get – the emphasis on suffering and death but the “next world will be better” position.  And, crosses made from sticks and hung on the chain link fence along with ribbons and other artifacts left by pilgrims.  Some crosses were large and constructed of 4x4s treated wood with bent nails.  But, it was interesting and felt special.  We both were reminded of Ecuador – the narrow streets, the over all feel.  A hawk being pestered by ravens was one of our last views of Chimayo.  At the overlook where I gathered some rocks were icons of a different nature.  Beer cans and abandoned underwear. Hmmm.  Susan Holford really likes this place.

On up to the ski slope Sipapu which refers to the opening where the ancestors access this world.  Neat forest service ski area.  Low key.  Into Taos, the visitor center where we learned about two rock shops which we later visited.  Nice to tuck into the motel because it was cold.  The next morning we found overnight temperatures had dropped to -16 F.  Wow!  Orlandos restaurant where locals frequent.

1-13-13.  By chance we took a pokey road that followed the Rio Grande River ice choked and filled with ducks with a bald eagle

Rio Grande River

South and west of Taos is the Rio Grande canyon. Fascinating!

overhead. A steep and deep canyon full of wonder.  I mused why no one had mentioned the canyon to us.  “We do weird stuff,” was Rich’s reply.  I guess that is true.  Who in their right mind wants to follow a gravel road up a steep incline with -0 degrees along a river with no guard rail….We do!  That is who!  Then, up on the plateau – remote and wind swept.  Eventually we found our way to Los Alamos and met Terry and Jim Foxx who toured us around Bandelier National Monument.  Incredible!  This is what I came for.  Rich really liked it, too. The Foxxes were excellent guides giving some information but not too much. Rich and Terry talked some about Pajarito Environmental Education Center while Jim and I made plans to visit labyrinths the next day.  The experience at Bandelier was ineffable (my favorite new word).  Warm in sun.  Cool to cold in shade. A peacefulness yet vibrancy. The Indians were Cochiti. Jim and Terry’s daughter worked on the pueblos one summer and then later did roofing in AZ!  Good practice. Hot…Hot…Hot!  Pictographs and some petroglyphs. Vast tuff deposits riddled with holes that make excavating possible.  One of the coolest sights was the “star” hole I noticed.  Jim said

The setting sun created a "star" image in this set of rocks.

The setting sun created a “star” image in this set of rocks.

because he usually takes a different route back he had not noticed it before, either.  Sun was just right and we were in the right location, too.  Rich and I bought some food stuffs at the local market and tucked into the warmth of the motel.  Hmmmm seems to be a common theme here, cold outside and warm inside!  Watched “Bones” on TV and a silly “Moonshiners” program.  Either really put on or real? Odd.

Bethlehem Labyrinth

An unusual and well crafted labyrinth set among pines in Los Alamos, NM

1-14-13. Snow began early.  Like goose down, but it changed our plans.  Jim Foxx came by about 9:30 a.m. and we chose to stay in Los Alamos rather than trek to Ghost Ranch which would have been – down slippery White Rock canyon past Espanola and up the steep road to Abiquiu and Ghost Ranch.  So, as we had agreed the day before, we were flexible.  Off to Bethlehem Lutheran Church where the secretary directed us to the far left corner of the grounds.  Jim went one way and I the other.  “I didn’t see any likely candidates,” was his assessment.  Meanwhile, I saw a grove of trees which I had “seen” before.  Later I thought that I had seen it on Locate A Labyrinth but  now in looking there is no picture.  But, I have “seen” it before.  We approached the pines and saw under the light carpet of snow bricks.  So, we started to scrape away the snow.  Jim, being very practical, went for a shovel.  He followed one edge of the bricks and i continued to use my foot to sweep away the snow.  Soon, we had a discernible pattern. How pleasant to work side-by-side in silence.  Just the scrape of the shovel on brick and the swoosh of the snow with my boot.  Comfortable.  Then, when we were satisfied, we took a feather and walked the labyrinth.  Very sweet!  The pattern is unusual as it twists and turns around the trees ending in the circular center.  Someone took a lot of time to renovate it.  Pastor, Nicolé Ferry, and administrative assistant, Kris Frain, engaged in conversation after we walked it explaining how it had been recently renovated. And, well done, too!  This was my favorite walk!  I particularly love the picture I took of Jim leaving the labyrinth with a big smile on his face.  I asked, “Did you ever dream you would be spending the morning shoveling off a labyrinth with a person you had just met?”  He just smiled. This church and labyrinth are indeed, “A Place of Grace.”  Wonderful!

Later we did the “just right” sized museum, met Director Katie’s mom from Brookline, MA, had lunch at a 50s diner and back to motel for a rest.  In the evening Terry and another board member and the director, Rich and I had dinner then the board meeting.  Rich does an amazing presentation – compliments, some concerns, some suggestions, ending with compliments.  The energy in the room was overall positive and I appreciated one younger board member who I think can be a colleague with Katie.

Center for Action and Contemplation

Set among modest dwellings this is a peaceful retreat.

1-15-13.  Up and away down the icy slopes to Albuquerque.  Walked one labyrinth at the Center for Action and Contemplation.  By this time I was ready to go, but I am glad we stopped.  Flight delayed so I had more time to admire the unique Albuquerque Airport designs, think about the bridges with interesting patterns on them, consider the mountains.  Then, a young man switched our flight pattern and we were off to Atlanta, GA!  65 degrees and humid there.  As we descended into Atlanta and before we dove into the heavy cloud cover, I looked west and there in a break in the clouds was an incredible sight.  The clouds parted in a wide V formation.  Two contrails from other jets formed the Tibetan Dai Ko Mio symbol! Then, we were near the ground.

On to CR.  In only an hour and a half later than originally scheduled.  Laurel and Bob there to meet us.  Home again, home again, jiggity jig.

I’m still reflecting on the labyrinth portion of the trip. However, each day I was able to connect with the earth, which made a huge difference.  The raven totem seems to hang with me from this trip.  So, that is all for now.

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Instruct

PebbleCenterOh, when I am in a super receptive mode….holy cow!  Last night I finally got up after tossing and turning, freezing and boiling,  and enduring images and colors floating across my mind’s eye.  Typed two messages to two people.  One was “Yes, but I don’t know what the questions are.” Then, finally sleep.  The next day a reply message indicated the one had many questions before her.  Off I went to Sisters for exercise and sauna.  But, everything got jumbled up for sure!  Suddenly, I knew to contact WTD and say come to the Regis Labyrinth at 8:30 a.m. So, we did.

 

Cold.  Still. Cloudy. Good to do.  Some banter and some listening to each other process.  The walk:  Again, I picked up a pebble randomly.  When I put it down I saw that it was the shape of a shoe.  So, maybe part of the message (yesterday I seemed to have a conclusion) for me is like in Emma’s Revolution to “Keep On Moving Forward….” We don’t forget or “just move on” but we do have to keep moving forward through our lives. The one picture of the inscribed bricks that I took was “Instruct.”

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The writing is not polished.  They are simply my rough notes.

I decided to stay home late afternoon after day two of an invigorating and interesting workshop.  Initially, I felt pretty guilty of breaking the appointment I had for later afternoon.  Suddenly, I knew I was to contact friends but could not find the email addresses.  So, I called.  How grateful I am to Universe to have helped me with awareness and the knowledge to “just do it.”  We had a good talk and the measure of comfort that I could offer was well received.   I still find it curious that I just know sometimes. But, from this summer’s “wax on-wax off” practice I’m better at responding to the “knowings.”

The polarized comments connected with the shootings in Connecticut are predictable.  Only one other person seems to have “got it” when I said, “But for the grace of God go you and I.”  I do not believe any of the people who have committed violent acts are inherently “evil.” (A term popularized by the second Bush administration and designed to create “us and them” feelings.  That term needs to be retired.)  Circumstances in people’s lives have accumulated and their resources diminished so they snapped and indeed did heinous acts.  But, “unthinkable”?  No.  Just think about how we are bombarded with bad news in all media, how children are allowed to watch violent movies and TV shows and play violent video games, how politicians demean each other in public, how radio personalities swear and rant about what they do not like, how novels and non-fiction tomes explicitly describe crimes  and how adults in institutions of all sorts push, shove, and bully workers and children.  And, we think these acts are “unthinkable”?

I believe that answers have more to do with how we treat people each day than in more laws, more controls, more….

Our friends whose child died a number of years ago, echoed what just was spoken on TV by families in the UK who have experienced a similar tragedy as Connecticut:  That grief is a long process, that people grieve in different ways, that the wound re-opens when a similar tragedy happens, that they appreciate being remembered because most people, “move on”  and seem not to recognize that wounds are forever.

Today in class today, a table-mate shared from a previous class on grief that she had taken, that some random thought, piece of music, or event can create a “grief burst”.  But, I try to keep in mind that while I (we) might remember, we do not have to relive the event.  However, this takes time.

So, where am I?  A colleague, in an email, provided helpful insight that I am practicing:  “If you walk the labyrinth everyday you will know soon what your role is in assisting the healing in Ct. The labyrinth is who you are and what you do.  Not to deny Reiki in any way.”

Today, before class I left Sisters Health Club early, bumped into a friend who is struggling with health, so tried to re-assure her, and then drove to the Regis Labyrinth.

The experience:  I pulled the earth toned shawl over my head to shield from the raw SW wind.  Damp and grey skies settled in.  Temperatures in the mid-30s.  I picked up a pebble by the entry – a modified Jewish and Christian tradition of putting stones and rocks on graves.  Never looking at it, I walked with my feather and the pebble.  The small bricks along the path caught my eye:  Pray…Instruct…Patience…Comfort…Forgive.  In the center I stood looking out over the tree line, the school building and up to the cross at Mt. Mercy University Chapel.  Only when I placed the pebble did I notice it, picked it up again, and took pause as the message revealed itself.  It was about a quarter inch thick and two inches wide,  tan on the outside, rounded and sheared off on one edge. Inside were noticeable black and white crystals.

The Reflection: This pebble is worn, fractured.  The other pieces are gone, never to be found again. It is incomplete.  But, by being fractured, the interior is revealed.  Only through experiences do we find elements within of strength, compassion that can help us find answers, move through, grow, share, and become more “whole” even in our brokenness.    This thought seemed to be “an answer” and the “conclusion” .  But, I am unsure about the middle, so will continue to walk as suggested.

“It is such a secret place, the land of tears.”  The Little Prince. Antoine de Saint Exupéry

Let us move to compassion.  “Be more kind than is necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some sort of battle.”

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Well tumultuous to say the least.  Why the return of emotions and physical symptoms from two years ago?  Interesting the Reiki attunements and sessions and the growth periods can cause so much “dis-ease”.  One author penned that just like with re-organizing a home, if someone should visit during the process and see the disarray, that person could be inclined to think, ‘This person keeps a messy home.’  But, after the process is finished, then the home looks and feels sparkly and lovely.  So, maybe the same with “re-organizing”  or “re-directing” a life.

Reiki Knowings both in sauna and at home: (These came before I talked with WTD). Connect and heal people and the earth. (The vision was of House Speaker Boehner and President Obama but they represent humanity. And, behind them was Earth.)

White dewdrops from upper right  flowing gently across my consciousness. Followed by intense Indigo of knowing. The path may not be clear to me but as Universe revealed to WTD when she walked the Labyrinth once, that does not mean (we are) I am on the wrong path.  Be present where I am now.  A major role I play is to connect people.

Conversation with WTD: I expressed that I feel I have no purpose, want a job more for the heart than the $$ but the latter, too, to feel I am contributing.  She said that her read is:  I am a long way from when we first met.  (Agreed) That I artfully and purposefully “dabble” which is positive. (Like a painting I fill in different areas perhaps.) I connect people, help them make things happen.  She reference intelligence – well, I just think differently and see seemingly disparate connections, which indeed often do exist.  She believes one of my totems is the eagle – flies high, sees from afar and way ahead of others.  I explained how it seems that Rich and I are ahead of our times.  i.e. natural landscaping, woodland management via fire, whole foods, living simply,living organic,  managing finances, prepared childbirth, the chicken projects, buying American, water management, human rights – gay and birth.  And that people can sometimes be too far out front and the concept not accepted. Then, the concept, idea, practice catches on.  It is Linda Hanson’s “Hundredth Monkey.”  It takes a certain mass before a practice is the norm.  When we did the crystal grid she suggested my intention be to be open to receiving and manifesting that which is my highest soul goal.  (paraphrasing here).  She worked the sacral (shadow self and fear) and solar plexus (personal power) chakras.  Suggested I walk to the Reiki Log in Faulkes Woods. So, Thursday I did.

First scared up the turkeys as they came to feast.  Those wild and wary birds! Then, the deer bolted.  From the top of the first ridge the view back to the house is re-assuring.  Down into the deep woods where the animals have turned over the leaves in search of food, which is scarce.  Makes me think of our society.  Some areas have many acorns but most areas have few or none. So, the majority of animals are struggling.   Only a few woodpeckers called the alarm as I passed by.  When I stood still, the animals and woods accepted my presence.  H.D. Thoreau and John Muir both write about this.

I didn’t want to look for feathers so stayed on the top of the ridge above Indian Creek.  Everything felt neutral.  Approaching Reiki Log I looked ahead to the eagle nest but didn’t see anything.  Repositioning myself, a slender tree with fresh and deep scars stood silent sentinel.  I really knew the eagle nest tree was gone even before I entered the woods and this confirmed.  Then, walking over to it, fresh droppings under other trees, fur balls, and a huge hole in the forest canopy brought home the demise of the the tree and nest that the eagles had called home for three summers.  Taking pictures of the destruction and evidence that the eagles still hang around I wondered if animals like people feel disoriented when their lives change dramatically.  And, what are the choices?  Perseverate long after the stimulus is gone; quickly move on or away without examining the situation and possible causes and options; linger, mourn, work through emotions and then move in new directions.  And what else?  So, looking for clarity but remembering Indigo Girls “Closer to Fine.”

I’m trying to tell you something about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
The best thing you’ve ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously, it’s only life after all
Well darkness has a hunger that’s insatiable
And lightness has a call that’s hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it, I’m crawling on your shore.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine.

I went to see the doctor of philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee
He never did marry or see a B-grade movie
He graded my performance, he said he could see through me
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paper
And I was free.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine.

I stopped by the bar at 3 a.m.
To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friend
I woke up with a headache like my head against a board
Twice as cloudy as I’d been the night before
I went in seeking clarity.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine.

We go to the bible, we go through the workout
We read up on revival and we stand up for the lookout
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine

*Two horoscopes I posted to FB:  “Carry the torch of greatness. Don’t let small problems stop you from achieving your goals.” “A clear vision of the future opens up. Access your confident side.” Pay attention, Mrs. Patterson!

*What Does Science Say About Wise Women Healers?

We are actually wired neurologically as “receivers”-this is particularly true for women. What this means is that we are attentive to the nuances of voice, expression, sight, and sound around us which registers in our bodies as feelings and sensation, health and illness. I am talking about the sixth sense that speaks to us regularly in dreams, “knowings,” flashes of insight or feelings. Men can and do develop these sensitivities but for women they are a natural gift of our gender.

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*Felt very unnerved and then saw this from WTD: “Use this intention today to support a powerful unfolding since the Eclipse. ‘It is my soul purpose intention to experience and express the complete alignment of my mental body, emotional body, physical body, and energetic bodies by bringing forth the highest vibrations of authenticity, truth, courage, creativity, compassion and self-love. I now choose to release all attachment to my personality, identity, patterns, behaviors and beliefs for a more expansive expression of my Divine Essence and of higher service to my soul’s evolutionary trajectory that supports the connection and healing of humanity and the earth. I Am in the right place in right timing, always and in all ways.’ So Be It.”

My reply was: “OK. I do have to say, though, I just saw this post. Around 8:30 a.m. I almost called to say, “Stop!” Incoming was powerful, unidentified and thus, unnerving. But, I mostly held it to the positive. And, in the sauna right after doing Reiki (That kumbaba rock(jasper)  is really heavy and never got hot! Stayed cool, which was nice on the temple) The Universe had me feel the power between my hands and visualize the people {Mr. Boehner  and Obama in particular} and the earth. This is what I am supposed to do. Working to be present and OK with that.”  Her reply, “Good job, Mrs. Patterson.  Hugs.” OK, stay present and what I feel can be positive energy coming in.

Indigo Girls: “The less I seek my source for some definitive….the closer I am to fine.”  Be present, Mrs. Patterson

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We remember big events in little bites.   And, the further away in time one is from an experience, the dimmer and more selective the memories become.  Here’s a rough attempt at capturing highlights and low lights of our Alaska OWAA trip.  I’m plugging away at this and will publish more occasionally.

I had been putting good energy into this trip for a number of weeks.  And, Rich had put lots of thought into it for actually planning.  Initially we didn’t have three nights accommodations accounted for, and all worked out well. Things went like clockwork!  An unusual event in and of itself, but an indicator of the aura of our trip.

Airport Personalities.As we traveled out the personalities of the airports revealed themselves.  Cedar Rapids Sensible.  Minnesota

Sunset at SEATAC

Nice (“Please stand clear of the door.  Door closing. Please hold on to the rails.”) People smiled, directed us, held doors.  Sleepless in Seattle taking in the ambiance of the Asian population, casual dress and demeanor of travelers and workers.  Fairbanks just darn cool with the displays of polar bears, the ice cat that takes people out on excursions.  Friendly and manageable.  The return flights were also on time with one exception.  We left Seattle almost an hour late and with only a 40 minute connection in Minneapolis to CR, we were worried.  So, I put good energy into this, too.  “I’m on it, Manny” came the reply from the Guides.  As it turns out, they were.  We rushed off the plane – well as fast as people in front of us would move – and hurried along.  I heard a call for electric carts to F6 “tight connections” and then saw a cart turning around.  I asked if it were going our way and the driver responded, yes.  So, we three Rich, Maridyth Maas of IntelliPayments who is a native of Kalona, IA, and I jumped on board.  The rest of the trip to the plane was like a James Bond car chase!  Weaving in and out of pillars, around people.  The driver screeched to a stop and said, “This is as far as I can go.  Stairs.  Go down and RUN!”  So, we did!  half way down the hall was an attendant waiting for us.  She cleared our boarding passes and we sighed into our seats.  Thank you Universe.  Last plane of the night.  And, our kind neighbor, Gary Crandall was waiting for us in his new car.

People we met.  Going out I thought of our passport holder and minutes later saw a woman with a beautiful scarf carrying one just like ours.  We chatted. Lori was off to Germany for a conference and presentation on the Earl of Shaftesburg the 3rd and 12th. Intrigue, murder, suspense!  And the 12th Earl sounds way cool – a modern moral philosopher.  From Minneapolis to Seattle, I sat next to a young woman who is an English Teacher and teaches by distance technology.  Then a very long wait in the airport.  On the three hour flight to Fairbanks we dozed. At one point I woke up and the woman next to me, from North Pole, AK, said, “Oh, I am happy you woke up.  Look, the Northern Lights.”  Sure enough above the clouds was an undulating band of green light.  We finally landed at 3:20 a.m.  Up 24 hours!  Yikes!  Car rental fine and they are equipt to handle late arrivals.  Off to Minnie Street Bed and Breakfast.  What an adventure that was!  Road construction.  No signs.  No lights.  Police didn’t know the location.  Well, we made it, eventually.  Marnie and Lambert were kind enough hosts for our three nights there.  They were reserved and I discovered why.  Marnie’s mother had died the week before!

JimMadonna, Rock Hound

Alaskan Prospectors owner, Jim Madonna looks through his “one power” lens – has no lens!

The Fairbanks CVB  missed the boat by not researching rock shops for us.  The heavy bias to direct inquiries to “members” truncates variety.  We simply asked Minnie Street B and B proprietors and they immediately directed us to Alaskan Prospectors run by Jim Madonna (really, that is his name!)  What a guy!  We chatted, admired his newly groomed dog and I found “the rock” to bring back.  Naturally, it was Waaaayyyy too big.  So, I continued to look as Jim peppered us with amusing stories of searching for rocks, his senior citizen runs, life in Alaska, and philosophy .  “When you get a focus, do it.  If you don’t, then you won’t do it.”  Succinct.  After a few minutes he disappeared and I heard a whack…whack…whack out front.  Then, hammer and rocks in hand he drawled, “For wielding the hammer – $15, OK?”  Wow!  He had whacked off two pieces of the rock with pyrite in it.  Well, what could I say?         Annie and Michael Hopper, our hosts at The Lodge at Black Rapids  had a full, hopping house!  Chris and Shannon with their eight-month old Miriam presented a calm, relaxed demeanor. The baby bounced in a handing seat right in the middle of the dining area.  Annie picked up the guitar, sang and played some songs.  Michael chatted with Rich about being “off the grid.”  Guests mingled, relaxed in the upstairs lounge and sprawled in the cupola as the setting sun split through the clouds and poured through the stained glass windows.  And, Rowdy.  How cool a dog is he!  Part Chocolate lab he greets you with a smile, maintains his distance, accompanies hikers on their outings and makes sure they come back A-OK!  He dragged around numerous “Mikeys” (like a toddler’s blanket) which ended up in the woods and along the river.  Then, he would wrestle with a branch until it broke and that became the the newest best toy…until the next one.  What a dog.  Very neat.          Chena Hot Springs Resort was our Outdoor Writers of America Conference (OWAA) destination and Bernie Karl is quite the character.  He certainly has taken a marginal facility and created an amazing complex of buildings, Ice Palace, Aurorium, rooms, hot spring pool, hot houses for garden produce, stables and dog sled areas, trails and pond.  He produces much food on site, recycles and generates electricity.  There is a lot of “showmanship”  but no one can deny he has energy and makes good use of “grants” and contacts as he recycles odd materials and creates new useful products.  But, he is overbearing.  I will say he “made it right” by getting the outhouses cleaned and offering us indoor accommodations for no additional cost.  Good will trumps a few extra bucks.       Marty Malinand I appear to be the only two either civilized or brave OWAA

attendees as we sprinkled his “Texas Champagne” (Scorpion Poison) onto our food.  Hot Cayenne – which I suppose is redundant.        Dawn Faught and Patricia Stockdill from ND are two seasoned OWAA members.  Pat served on committees when Rich was President of OWAA and proved to be sensible and reliable.  Dawn has another story:  As they picked their way back to the yurt at 11 p.m. one evening past mud puddles, between buildings and along side the corn patch, Pat chatted away happily.  Dawn, flashlight in hand guided them. Hearing a noise in the corn patch, she whispered, “Pat, be quiet.”  Pat chatted on happily.  “Pat, shhhh, be quiet.”  Pat chatted on happily.  Then, Dawn took her arm, pointed with the flashlight and hissed in her ear, “Pat.  Be quiet!”  About 10 feet from them was a bull moose browsing on the left over corn.  One step and he would have been in range to toss them high with his antlers!  Pat stopped chatting happily.

Server in the grocery store gave me a discount. “You have earned it.”  Another clerk gave spot on directions to the nearest USPO.

Foods We Enjoyed:  King crag legs.  BoudinAlaskan Beer.  Fish – salmon, halibut!  Fresh vegetables grown in Chena Hot Springs hothouses. And the restaurant meals, though expensive, were really good – salads, soups, a killer pizza in Denali, fabulous B n B breakfasts and dinners.

Accommodations: Now this is a story.  We knew prices would be high, and think about it.  In Interior Alaska businesses have about four months to make a living.  The B and B and Lodges were great.  Interesting artifacts on the walls, comfy beds, great meals, and charming owners.  The yurt on the other hand was, well, let me say:  A difference exists between rustic, primitive and “being taken advantage of.”  The latter was the case.  Smelly,  dirty in and out – the dome needed cleaning and the tent sides were heavy with lichen and mold.  No heat.  No light.  Three cots, three plastic chairs and one table.  No hooks for clothes.  Pretty bare.  Not what any of us were thinking and certainly not $83 worth!  Well, we “yurtees” as Rich called us, were rugged and made it.  But the last night was way chilly.  Good thing we had Grabberwarm packs.

Yurt Village. An experience.

Weather: Typical Alaska weather drizzle.  Mid-50s.  Need rain jacket and hat/gloves.  Wind!  OMG!  Leaving the Lodge at Black Rapids the wind was picking up glacial dust and tossing it into the air, where it traveled miles.  Geology in Action!  I loved it.  I mentioned to Rich in Delta Junction, “These winds are like gale force winds of a hurricane.” And, it proved I was correct in my observations.  We later learned that the Anchorage Airport was closed.  Michael Hopper said his wind turbines broke and trees fell all over central Alaska.  One day we had low 70s.  Interesting that Glenallan, AK, gets 11″ of moisture a year.  It is drizzily, damp, and has many trees and mosses. Pasco, WA, in the desert gets close to the same amount yet is dry, hot and barren by comparison.

Landscape: Rugged and barren in many places.  Tall peaks, dense monoculture forests to flat and braided glacial rivers.  Broad valleys and thermal springs.  Some rounded mountains north of Fairbanks and on the way to Denali. Then, up Chena Hot Springs Road the view was pastoral with cows and hay bales, gardens and rounded mountains.  Down near Glenallen the rivers were either clear and salmon filled or braided and milky coming off glaciers.  Both cold.

Rocks:  Well if any state is about rocks and geology, it is Alaska!  How fun to see geology in action!  The glaciers, deep forests with permafrost, rugged mountains, lush valleys, tumbling creeks and braided rivers.  The land is almost too much to grasp.  While walking up Gunnysack Creek near the Lodge at Black Rapids south of Delta Junction, I admired the boulders, the smaller rocks and turbulent waters.  A small handful of rocks was tucked into my pocket, but none really seemed to be “The One.”  Then, Universe said, “You will know it when you see it.”  Within about twenty-five feet I spotted a gleaming round, green and white rock propped up against another, larger rock.  That was it!  So, now this amazing rock is in the labyrinth at home.  Some hand-sized rocks have gone to friends and a few others are in the spillway of the little pond beside the deck.

Wildlife: Why people think wildlife is abundant in Alaska is a puzzle.  Grant you, the ocean is fertile, some rivers at certain times of Golden Eagles at Denalithe year when the salmon run is on, and caribou herds are magnificent. But overall, acre for acre where habitat is decent, wildlife is more abundant in Iowa than in Alaska.  Rich tells of giving rides in August to fuzzy-faced teens out to make a living in the wilds who think they will have a cabin built, wood stored in, and meat in “the locker” all before freeze.  Well, we were there the last of August and into September and freeze, snow, and winter were upon us. We saw a few eagles along creeks with fish, several ravens, three grizzly bears in Denali, a three moose – one in the resort and a cow and calf, some LBBs (little brown birds), a few flocks of ducks on the waterways.  And, at the Creamery Wildlife Preserve right in Fairbanks were dozens of geese and Sand Hill Cranes.

Rich’s Remembrances:  Rich lived in Alaska three different seasons ranging from four to seven months.  Way out.  No phone.  No heat. lanterns. Although “the best” gear at the time, it was poor by comparison to today.  Amazing to see the conditions and locations.  He pretty much found Poplar Grove Creek where he did weir work and showed me Glenallan, the town that was and seems to be still, pretty unfriendly.  Rich recalled the drizzle, which is pretty much what we had, that bugs are down, the color is up in late August. In the early 70s fewer roads.  He got dropped off the Alaska RR at Denali and  camped.  On the rainy days he sat inside the lodge, which later burned, and read.  He and Charlie Nikita (sp) backpacked in and did see Denali.  We have the picture he took with his good camera back in the day.

Some Adventures:     Gunnysack Creek served up a mystery yet unsolved.  We found all rolled up a quality tent and tripod right next to the creek – photography or elk hunting? Sharing this information with Michael and Annie, they then contacted the Reserve guy up the road who said he had noticed a car overnight.  So, Rich, Annie and I set out up the creek again.  The tent was still there where we placed it up away from the creek edge.  We kept walking up and looking, calling.  Universe said, “Stay close to the creek downstream.”  Up into a marvelous canyon, past some “mining” claims we went.  Then, headed back, picked up the tent and returned to the Lodge.  Rich opened it and found it to be well-used but in good shape.  Finders keepers, but we decided to leave it with the Hoppers, hoping that the owner would find it.  As soon as we returned to the tent, the message from Universe stopped.

On the Denali trip we witnessed three golden eagles tussling with each other and two hikers avoiding a Griz along a river bank. The

Two of three golden eagles on the wing. Adults teaching young?

hikers waved their arms, seemed to be singing or talking loudly and moved away from the bear.

Coming in at 2:30 a.m. we navigated into town but could not find Minnie Street as per the directions.  Well, no wonder!  The street was torn up, all signs and stop lights were down and the construction moved us away from our turn.  Back to the police station we had passed and our query of Minnie Street Bed and Breakfast was greeted with, “I don’t know!”  but, the person found out and we dragged in about 3:30 a.m. Tired after 24 hours up.

The flight tours were mostly postponed or cancelled from Chena Hot Springs. On Friday we checked and two seats were open, so we signed up.  Well, the other folks who were initially on the Beaver flights didn’t realize they had to re-sign up on cancelled flights. So, seven seats – nine passengers. Rich and I bowed out and as we did so, a rainbow appeared over the runway!  I felt good about the “good karma” we generated and perfectly OK not flying.  I have a feeling something pretty special will come from this.

Walked two labyrinths that demonstrate the wide variety of beliefs:  The Unitarian Universalist of Fairbanks and the Roman Catholic Diocese of Fairbanks.  Rich had a thought to contact Connie Karl about installing a labyrinth at  Chena Hot Springs.

Disoriented: For a number of nights after our return I would wake up and really not know where I was.  Strange.

Synchronicity: Stopped in Nenana at The Roughwoods Inn and Café  and the Alpen folks also appeared.  We joked about having “the winning guesses” to the Nenana Ice Classic that happens in April.

That is all for now.  Perhaps more thoughts will emerge as time goes by.

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Prairie Labyrinth on Earth Day 2012

Labyrinth builders at the entrance to the Prairie Labyrinth at Indian Creek Nature Center.

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On December 22nd join me at the 1080 Laughing Labyrinth for a winter solstice walk.  3-5 p.m. Central Time. Contact me ahead if you plan to join us to help planning.  Dress for the weather!

1080 30th St Drive SE, Cedar Rapids, IA  52403

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